Thoughts

I have just read someone's page and guess what.... I am thankful. Never thought she going to stand back on her feet again, knowing every little things around her is making her happy. I'm glad she notice it and right now  I am also noticing the little things around me. Actually I always notice it but never thought deeply about it...Just as light brightens darkness, discovering inner fulfillment can eliminate any disorder or discomfort. This is truly the key to creating balance and harmony in everything you do.

The elemental fact, present in our consciousness every moment of our existence, is: I am life that wills to live, in the midst of life that wills to live. ... The essence of the humane spirit is: Preserve life, promote life, help life to achieve its highest destiny. The essence of Evil is: Destroy life, harm life, hamper the development of life.If you want to live a happy life, tie it to a goal. Not to people or things.Everyone is trying to accomplish something big, not realizing that life is made up of little things. It is that, but really, it's about how we don't recognise the little things in life, or appreciate the little things in life like belonging. A sense of belonging is a big thing today.

I’m grateful for anything that reminds me of what’s possible in this life. Books can do that. Films can do that. Music can do that. School can do that. It’s so easy to allow one day to simply follow into the next, but every once in a while we encounter something that shows us that anything is possible, that dramatic change is possible, that something new can be made, that laughter can be shared.No matter how bad things look, you are always being blessed. Ask yourself, ‘What is the blessing here?’ and express gratitude for the awareness that comes to you.

  I tend to make a written or mental list of the things I do each day. Then give myself a mental credit for each of them, however small. This will help me focus on what I have done instead of what I haven't gotten around to do. It may sound simplistic, but it works. Hope I keep up the good work. I'm thankful for everything.

Truth

This month I realized something. That no one cares what other think only themselves,that's selfish of course.I travel to a far place just to forget what is happening. I tend to entertain myself to not over think. But it didn't work, I got my both parents involve on my problem and it made it worse for me. Can I live in peace please?  

   I have a cousin who tend to do everything for me, even when she has exams., thanks to her I am happy now. She amazing! Funny! And lovely! I rather stay here than coming back.  

  People here are so polite and friendly..I wish I can live here.but my annoying parents doesnt want me to stay as usual. They make scenes for nothing. They comment about me just for fun. What is this! I am not a kid to control me! Leave me alone!..I am sick of their behaviors...

  I want someone to understand me just for once..how honest I am with everyone, how protective I am for my loved ones! How sweet and caring I am to them..I want them to understand that I will love them forever! I will always stay beside them!<3

Letter To You!

  A Friendship is sweet when it's NEW….But it is SWEETER when it's TRUE!….

   But you know what? it is SWEETEST when it is YOU…. Like a candle in the dark….

  make every thing feel bright... you may be out of my sight but you will always be deep in my heart…

My dearest, you brought tears to my eyes… i am so thankful that i have you in my life, and the fact that my friends are very few does not upset me AT ALL, for i have you, and having YOU makes me content and pleased… i am very honored to be the well of your secrets, this means the world to me.. and i want you to know that your secrets are NEVER a burden on me

Our friendship is a miracle itself.. a bless.. a strength that enables us to go on along this bumpy road knowing things will be just fine, becuz at the end of the day, we know we each have someone who cares about us no matter what happens… or what wrong we may do

It is such a wonder how when it comes to us, we treat each other differently, I have never managed to treat other friends the way I treat you! I have never managed to accept their faults, nor bare with some qualities of theirs which contradict to my own.. we should not be harsh on people nor judgmental, but I am ashamed to say I have not achieved this with some people, and proud to know I can never judge you, nor feel agitated about anything you do or say.. isn’t it a wonder? Alhamdulillah, knowing there is someone in this world I feel this way about lets me realize I have been given a gift millions have never dreamed of obtaining…

Bored!

I am so bored, there is nothing to do only doing simple stuff......Oi Oi I wanna go out with friends and have fun! I feel I'm homesick! ((O_o)) Wish to go out so badly! I wish there some neighbor friends to hang out! but its been years not hanging with any neighbors, Its kinda boring! I think I am better off to read a story or something, that would be fun maybe. So........Any idea?? mmmmmm... I think I can read twilight? Nop! Manga? Yes!...........Manga it is!! so I will read manga then i can read something different after it so I''ll then continue writing here about what manga i chose and what it is about! Soo bye bye!

Today!

           This morning i woke up early at around 7:30 to get ready for Uni...........In a while later, a message from my friend......"Ruru uni is closed have a good sleep :)"...........I was O.o "What! Oi I just finished wearing my cloth agrrrrrr!" Lool I was really excited to go uni, cuz i have spending  my spring break at home so its really boring! Anyway my aunt's driver is waiting for me downstairs so instead of staying home and changing my cloth i went to the shopper market to fool around! I bough some stuff for home, then I bought chocolate :D yummy! Then I came back home.
   
           I began to watch animes until my mom wakes up, maybe we can watch a movie or something together! Anyway my mom wake up and was wearing her cloth already to leave with my aunt to go the the hospital to check for a blood test. So i waited for mom, then we both went to the shopper market and we were........(O.o) wth! why everything is done! The shopper market is so crowed and a lot of people are looking for items but it was done already. So i was saying to mom " Mom, let chase people for items?" she began to laugh.........Then I looked at the old man holding lemons and I was........Oi Oi (O.o) Give me the lemons you old man!........He began to laugh and I was ((+_+)) not funny mister!


Then an old lady passed by holding tomatoes! And I was ((O_o)) Oi Oi Oi!! （￣ー￣）Give me the tomatoes!............. (ノಠ益ಠ)............. (►.◄) -took the bag and ran away!-.............Just kidding I didnt acually did it but i wanted to, it would be hilarious chasing people's items 0;^........ (^_^)v
It was a fun day though acting silly!!   ≧ω≦

Drawings I did!

What A Day 2

As my last blog.........  I posted about what happened today as I stated it as " What A Day" but this is a continues one..........

What A Day!
As I stated everyone seems so loving and also seems kind. Laughs brought it to an end......We joked around and have fun...telling each other the important things in life..........Becoming better!
We all hugged each other tightly...and said to each other " Take Care Of yourself "..........We all did!
And said......." I Love You"........But I will state it again!.......I love you Nuki, Lola, Eve, Ashlee, Jasmie, Yousef, Dina, Sarsi, Mona,  Elias, Danah, Nasser, Maryam, and the rest of my group friends at AUK!........Wish everyone a good spring break!......I am sure I am going to miss you guys!.......

Here is something short I wrote for all my loved once......."All my friends"



Sharing thoughts...
Wiping tears...
Being there for one-another
through the years.
Giving advice, to make things right.
Showing you care by holding me tight.
When the road gets rough.
And the people keep on going.
You always seem to be there,
and our friendship keep on growing.

Thank you all! Love you guys!

Everything has changed

Hello all...I'm here to tell you what I have decided to do........

I will try my best to achieve my goal to be a graphic designer and to become a famous!
I was just talking to my mom about leaving kuwait to study in Canada, " The OCAD University"...but it ends like I'm not leaving but she promised me that I will work there in the future and get the best job ever!

I have decided to open a new life with some of my close ones and decide to show them the truth about everything! The changes that I decided! Everything has changed! I will be kinda different with the ones around me right now....focusing more on my studies and everything! Not caring a lot and began improving myself to become the best enshala!.....So wish me luck guys!

All right! I am really busy right now, so I'll post something later on, so see ya and have a nice day!! :**

Old friends

Hello...

I am here again to tell you what old friends really mean to me...its like I am born to the world again.

last week I met several friends, and guess what...I saw my old friends from my old old school when I was only a little kid...I am so happy that I met them, its like everything is back were it was!

Yesterday, my friend and I was talking about the things we use to do in school....Amazing right! It gave me a great feeling...

So I really recommend everyone try to think of your childhood, don't forget your old friends...they will always be right beside when you needed them, Like I do now! I met my old friends and I'm so happy! I missed them like hell!!!

~AIS Friends~ love you all *

What I need to do or need to change..

let me see...

*I probably need to study for my upcoming exams..

*I might try to hang out with some friends..new ones.. ;p

* Change my personality a bit..

*Trying to enjoy life..

* but I should be a bit serious about uni a little more..work hard!!

*Stop caring too much! That makes it easier for me to live..and not get hurt!

*And care a bit more about my family...

*Need to be in dependable and responsible...

and thats it for now....I need to be strong as well, and not scared to face others...

It goes on and on...

It's all pointless...Why Put on the act? Why act happy when I'm really not? Why pull myself together when I'd rather just fall apart for a while? I don't want my life to always be this way..

The strength is kind of illusion..

I'm strong because I think I have to be not because I want to be. I've come to know that. My " strength" is fear based.

It's kind of a stubborn/ foolish pride kind of strength too, I'll admit it. I know it's not something to boast about, but I'm not perfect and I won't ever be.

At the same time I am not ashamed to break down and cry in public or do silly things, especially when my emotions get too strong. I'm self-assured enough to know that other people have moments of weakness too, that doesn't mean they're not strong..

It gets so overwhelming at times...

Keeping a happy face is what the society invariably expects us to do. Does anyone care what the person might be actually suffering?

There was a time when I thought that my miracle is on its way soon to get to me. That was the only thing that helped me hold on till now. I am so sick of it now.

I just feel like all pent-up anger and sadness is boiling up right underneath my skin. At this very moment, I seriously need to find an outlet for my anger and frustration. I have heard that holding in you feelings is not good for mental and physical health. Maybe I should try playing some sports which needs to use up energy. If everything fails, I will probably go to some secluded place and shout out all the things that's on my mind.

Friends for Life..

True friends never leave each other, even if one of them is walking on the wrong path of life…However, try to correct the other in a way that it does not hurt the ego of the other friend. Friends don't mind when mistakes are pointed out; rather they try to accept it and change themselves for the better.

True friends are those, who inspire others to become a better person in life. I can safely say that lonliness is the most painful feeling in the world. Its that feeling you get when you realize that society is too flawed to recognize those that dont fit in. All anyone ever wants is a chance to be loved and accepted, but sadly thats more than people seem willing to give. My lifes not terrible. Its not that people dislike me. i have friends. its the fact that most people dismiss me as unimportant. no one tries to get to know me which is the only way i can really get to know others. I feel invisible or something.

Sometimes all i want is just one person in my life to know everything there is about me and understand me. sometimes the lonliness gets to you. i keep going though. It hurts but it also strengthens. Im me and if people dont want to get to know me its their loss. I know there are a lot of lonley people out there who just want to give up, but you can't. I no one else will love you then learn to love yourself. be yourself to the fullest extent possible. dont give up. love yourself. be something unique. show the world what they are missing.

Most problems with friendships come up because people are just too selfish to care about the things that their friends need. They care about their own needs much more, which makes it hard for friendships to work. However, being selfish is part of human nature. A person is put together in order to take care of themselves and their own needs, not necessarily those needs of other people. Even though being selfish is something that all humans are programmed to do, it is something that everyone should guard against.

The best thing to remember when you are a friend to anyone is that you need to treat your friends the same way that you'd like to be treated. This is wonderful advice for a friendship, because it is really the only way to make sure that you are giving your friends everything you would want to be given in a friendship. Whenever you have a question about how you should treat a friend, it is easy to find an answer simply by asking yourself what you would like your friend to do for you, if he or she was in your shoes.

Even if you're always thinking about how you'd like to be treated, and your friends are too, there are issues that come up from time to time in each friendship, and it is important to understand how to deal with these issues so that you can build stronger and healthier friendships. Issues like friends getting boyfriends or girlfriends and not spending enough time with their friends, or even friends finding new friends and leaving old friends behind are issues that will probably come up with one or more of your friendships. It is important to know how to deal with these friend changes so that you can keep your friends and make new ones. No one wants to have to endure a broken friendship.

Friend issues have to be dealt with, even if it seems tough to do. If you don't think that you know how to deal with your friend issues on your own, it might be a good idea to seek someone's help. Other friends, or parents or even counselors at school can give you advice about how to handle some of your friend issues. Once you know how to handle some basic friend issues, you can figure out how to handle others on your own. And you will also know that you can be better.

A chapter of my life

Where to begin...Well I've let myself do a quick search in an environment that I've always been to. I studied every person that walks pass me. But I restlessly looked around hoping for someone, then I realized that I found this person, but suddenly this thought passed through my mind where this person's head snapped up, probably having that feeling that someone is staring at you. well, its like I don't see anyone accept that person I'm glazing at...But I see that person in the sunlight shadows and in the corner of light, a glimpse, a memory a thought a smell, a bump in the night. These still all are deb for me. I find myself walking at 11:00 and at three, in search of that person, where that person got to now?

then, I remember that person no longer need me...Silence in my mind... Lately, my thought grab me in the dark stealing my sleep. I wonder now if I will ever sleep again. How can Deb be gone possibly be that person. The most valuable person I've ever met. ..But here is the thing...Isn't it funny how at some points in your life, you think that everything is going so perfectly well and yet it always ends up badly? You spend hours trying to figure out why you're doing it all wrong all the time, why you always end up broken. You must be doing something wrong, obviously. It is said that through life, you make mistakes, time passes and you eventually learn from them. In my case, it's the total opposite.

I keep making mistakes yet I never learn. What is a tear? Is it just a drop of water which comes out of our eyes? Is it just a drop of water gliding down the aisle of our cheek to reach the chin? Is it just a drop of water which escapes for freedom and takes the plunge of death from our chin till it hits the floor? Or is it something else? Something beyond what words could ever describe? A tear is a feeling, an emotion. It is not released by our eyes or our mind. It is released from somewhere much stronger, yet too sensitive. From deep down in our hearts. But what causes our heart to release this tear? A broken arm? A broken leg? Or the broken heart itself?

When the heart releases a tear, it does not mean that we are weak or we can't hold on any longer. But it means the total opposite. It means that we have been strong and struggled for way too long and it is time to let go. Let the past be the past and let the present guide us to a better future. A future, hopefully, with no mistakes, no pain, no tears, no heartbreak So here is a life lesson to anyone who might be reading this. A lesson which might lead to a simpler life with as less problems as one could ever face. A fact: The minute - no, let me rephrase that, the second - you start to care, is the moment you start getting hurt.

My Journey -Graphic design..

Design is a plan for arranging elements in such a way as best to accomplish a particular purpose. Everything is designed. Few things are designed as well. There no design without discipline. There no discipline without intelligence. I've always held to the belief that the practice of creating compelling graphic design occurs by employing the principals of a democracy, but rather, that of a monarchy. But Every designers' dirty little secret is that they copy other designers' work. They see work they like, and they imitate it. Rather cheekily, they call is inspiration. However, people think that design is styling. Design is not style. It's not about giving shape to the shell and not giving a damn about the guts. Good design is a renaissance attitude that combines technology, human need, and beauty of produce something that the world didn't know it was missing....Whats the world want is what it wants from your creation. Your born to create your dream; and a living.

Follow my dreams..

What motivates me to reach my dream...Well...I wrote a poem from couple of days ago reminding me each day to follow my dreams... and here it goes..

I get laughed at, I get ignored. I often feel trapped,and keep my thoughts stored. People can be cruel and very mean, but no matter what, I follow my dream, Life has waves, I know that, But I stand brave, and just take the crap. I may feel exhausted and totally creamed, but no matter what, I follow my dreams. I know what I want, and I won't stop trying, Quitting? I can't, for now I'm flying. It's impossible, it seems,...But no matter what, I follow my dreams.